I feel like I'm going through thee shittiest time of my life.


empty.empty.empty.

How did I become so friendless and how do I even start hanging out with people again?


I turn 21 on sunday and the only thing I have planned is going out to dinner with my family. I would have something else if only I had the friends for it. I realized that the reason I always feel shitty is because I have no one! Well maybe I do but they all live far and we never really see eachother.


Anyway, today was lame because i was feeling lonely, like always, and i also went to the doctors and found out that i have yet another lump/tumor? on one of my boobs! so now I have 3. I will be removing tumor #2 out of 4 on feb 17. not excited about it but whatever it has to get done. I'm sad that after all this, my boobs will be all scarred up. =/ well, whoever i marry has to deal with it. haha


oh & btw, I had the best horchata today at this restaurant called Casa Moreno. It's a mexican restaurant in downtown covina. My mom and I like to go there a lot. so good.

song behind my user name =]

Today was the last day of my ceramics class and I gotta admit that I'm going to miss it.

1. because it was fun
& 2. because everyone in there was cool.

anyway, here are some of the things i made.








=]

I went to the farmers market tonight and bought some of these for my momma. =]
She doesn't come home till tomorrow morning so she hasn't seen them yet!



Tomorrow is my last day working at the doctors office. I'm soo glad! wooo. I get to sleep in again.

I'm over here being dumb, moody and hating everyone when serious shit is going on.

The southern california fires are scary. I've been reading on it and looking at pictures.

here's one of them.


My sister in laws sister is staying with us because she got evacuated from school & Steph got evacuated from her condo!

it's all tooo much. my prayers go out to everyone that are close to it. I hope it ends soon.

I want it.

I love the guys at work. They're either in their 30's, 40's or 50's , but either way, those guys are too fucking funny. I laughed a lot at work today. It was awesome.

uh, I got people praying, knocking on wood and crossing their fingers for me so that the new lump they found isn't another tumor. Whatever it is, it hurts as well. =/


and ummmmm I want this Johnny Cupcakes bag





sorry if I made your shit huge but I love it! :]

It's blurry because I was lazy to scan it and took it with my phone but anyways...Who gets to say that they own a polaroid picture of Jason Schwartzman? mee! :] this made my day.

I wish I had two left sides of my face (I dislike my right) and also bigger boobs. My moms boobs are double D's...what happened to me?

Best Cupcakes ever.

I always post entries saying how cute my second cousin Sami is but I never do one of her brother Artie!


Arthur Ewald Zimmerman the 4th


I <3 this kid. He's crazy and hyper but a super nice kid.

This was Beckham's last game with Real Madrid & Real Madrid's 30th time winning the spanish league.


My dad owes me a soccer game and I can't wait.


ps. the guy that says goal says it too funny.


pps. I found out the other day that I have spanish in me. cooooool

I spent my morning at the Hsi Lai Buddhist Temple & it was nice.





It reminded me of Alex and the conversation we had when I was having an anxiety attack. I love how peaceful it is there.

Amazing picture? yes yes!


The guys in the picture are some of my favorite actors. Them all together is pretty awesome. Like I've said already, Oceans 13 was funny and cool. Not as good as I thought it would be but it was still cool. Better than 12 but not 11. Oceans 11 is still my fav.

The people that Casey Affleck and Scott Caan played or just things they even said in this movie were funny. I liked the scenes when they were in Mexico. Casey Affleck speaking spanish = really bad but pretty funny. especially what he saays. I also thought it was cute how they all did this for Reuben. I got all happy when he started feeling better and went to the casino.

I really want his bed!

The part where Brad "Rusty" & George "Danny" were crying because they were watching Oprah was funny and true. I mean if you've ever watched one of those sad episodes then you know how that goes. I cried a lot when Jon Travolta was there and they were talking about this little boy that died. The more Jon T. cried, I cried. Her show is good yet sad.


and just because these guys are amazing...




here's a lovely picture of Brad Pitt & George Clooney in an interview for Entertainment Weekly. :]


that is all. goodnight<3

If it's just a coincidence and we share the same name and a penchant for the written word, than fine. But if he's using my name to sell books than I am sure the business end of a dirty cock will find his ear and... well, you get the idea. Anyway, thanks so very much and I hope to see some of you out on tour this summer. Peace and hair grease, Brandon Boyd


haha i <3 him.
Will I ever get over the fact that I met him? Probably not. I want to meet him again but this time with the rest of the boys there.